Heartache

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SasuSaku Month 2017

Day 19: Regrets

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I used the english version of One Ok Rock’s Heartache, but the original Japanese version is amazing as well. The song just gives me feels~ songfics are my thing after all 😀

FFnet link 😀

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Uzumaki Naruto knows that there are a lot of words that can describe his best friend Uchiha Sasuke.

Teme. Genius. Straight-A student. Prodigy. Perfect son. Best vocalist ever. Just Sasuke.

But now, he has added another word to suit him.

Masochist.

He has to be, when he decided to accept Ino’s request to have their band sing for her graduation party. He knows everyone will be there since Ino is practically Miss Congeniality. Their former classmates in high school, her classmates in college… Sakura.

His ex-girlfriend.

They broke up just weeks after graduating high school. It was a big shock to everyone who knew them, since they were practically inseparable. But Naruto knows why, and he is certain Ino is aware as well. It was messy – a lot of hurtful words were said. For four straight years they pretended not to know each other. Going to different universities made it easy. Both were equally stubborn, refusing to let their pride down. Their friends decided to let them be after a lot of failed attempts to make them be together again. They all knew that no matter how far apart or how much they try to cut their ties, their red string of fate will never break.

Ino actually hired two bands, so that one could take a break while the other performed. It was a great night in the Yamanaka estate, but Sakura was still nowhere in sight. Naruto figured it’s for the best, since he knows that his best friend is still very much in love with the pinkette, though he denies it every single time.

Their band was performing their last song when Sakura came into view, laughing with a man in tow. He seems to be the man Ino was referring to as Sakura’s suitor. Sasuke tried to keep his cool, but Naruto can see in his eyes how hurt he was. After that, the audience wanted an encore.

“Should we give one?” Neji asked them.

“It’s fine with me ‘ttebayo!”

Shikamaru nodded. “What song should we play then?”

They turned toward Sasuke, whose head was lowered. When he looked at his bandmates, they could see the anguish reflected in his onyx orbs.

“You guys… know the song Heartache right?”

Naruto’s eyes went wide. “But teme, I thought you didn’t like the song. Besides, Sakura-chan is –”

“I need… I just need to let this out, okay?”

The other three looked at each other and nodded in response. They went back to their positions and waited for Sasuke’s signal.

“This last one… is rather special. Someone I love liked it, but I refused to sing it to her. Now, there’s no better time than today to fulfil her wish.” With a nod, the band started and captured the attention of everyone.

Especially the person Sasuke was referring to.

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So they say that time takes away the pain

But I’m still the same

And they say that I will find another you

That can’t be true

Oh why didn’t I realize

Why did I tell lies

Yeah I wish that I could do it again

Oh turning back the time

Back when you were mine

All mine

So this is heartache

So this is heartache

All these pain in my chest, my regrets

And things we never said, oh baby

So this is heartache

So this is heartache

What we meant, what we said that night

Why’d I let you go

I miss you

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Even when he started, Sasuke didn’t look away from Sakura even when she was seated with her back facing him. The song made her stiff with surprise at first, but gained the courage to gaze at him.

Oh Sasuke-kun…

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So they say that I didn’t know what I had in my life

Til it’s gone

The truth is that I knew you were the life

We never knew it would end

Oh baby watching you walk away

Why didn’t I make you stay

Yeah I wish that I could do it again

Oh turning back the time

Back when you were mine

All mine

So this is heartache

So this is heartache

All these pain in my chest, my regrets

And things we never said, oh baby

So this is heartache

So this is heartache

What we meant, what we said that night

Why’d I let you go

I miss you

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Sakura’s eyes started to water. She really liked this song when she first heard it, and knew that Sasuke’s voice fits it well. He was with her that time, and she bugged him to do a cover. He refused to be swayed, though.

Now, here he is, singing it in front of a large crowd. For her.

Only her.

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It’s so hard to forget

Getting worse as the days go by

Yeah so hard to forget

What do I do with all of these love

You and all the regret

I try and hide the pain with nothing

I’ll never be alive with no more you and I

I can’t forget the look in your eyes

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Sasuke poured out his long kept feelings through that song, hoping Sakura will get the message. She did, and she felt every line pierce through her.

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So this is heartache

So this is heartache

All these pain in my chest, my regrets

And things we never said, oh baby

So this is heartache

So this is heartache

What we meant, what we said that night

Why’d I let you go

I miss you

I miss you

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He closed his eyes for a moment, trying to keep his composure when all of his being wanted to break down.

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I miss you

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For the last time, he locked his eyes with hers.

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I… miss you

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After that, Sasuke left the stage immediately. He went to the gardens, and from where he was standing he found the man Sakura came with kissing another girl. He was about to give him a piece of his mind when a very familiar voice stopped him.

“Sasuke-kun…”

He looked at her, his eyes full of anger – which was not for her. “Sakura, how could you let that man cheat? Look! He’s kissing another girl!”

“As it should be.” Sakura tried to keep a straight face but found his jealousy quite amusing. Did he really think…?

“What?! Here I am, letting you go since I hurt you badly, and you chose a man who cheats? Sakura, seriously?! Why are you laughing?!”

Sakura took a moment to stifle her laughter. “I guess Ino told you he’s my suitor, huh? He’s not, really. I’m helping him to be with my friend Kaede – the girl he’s kissing now. We just came together because she went to the bathroom first.” She came closer to him and laid a hand on his cheek. “You still sing beautifully, Sasuke-kun.”

“It’s for you, you know.”

Her eyes grew misty and gave him a sad smile. He took her free hand and held it against his chest, and he held the warm hand on his cheek. “Sakura… I’m sorry.”

“For what?”

“For everything.”

Tears freely flowed down her cheeks. “You b-better be, shannaro. I’m… I’m sorry too.”

As they hugged under the moonlight, their friends secretly peeking at them, they are finally able to stop years of heartache from hindering their happiness.